Sad case for me, perhaps.

Finally this Tuesday I hung out with you again.
You held my hand tightly when I stepped in your car.
At the moment, I felt warm.
I tried to shake you hand off but finally I failed to do it.
I felt shame and keep on looking out of the mirror.
You asked me, why will I become like this.
I told you it's hard to explain.
After back, you asked me to tell you the reason.
I just told you all my current life.
Yesterday we hung out again.
Before that, we sms-ed.
You sent a message that hurts me lots.
I didn't drop my tears down.
I just turned my mood on the moment.
Again I stepped in your home.
But this time you didn't hold my hand tight.
I felt strange with you, honestly.
After you fetch me back, you keep on asked me why will I become like this.
Just let it be, I told you.
From the start til now, I didn't change.
But you changed.
Don't you realize ?
You know I love you.